Christmas - A Mixture Of Emotions

It's nearly Christmas and I have not even started my Christmas shopping yet but I'm determined to try and get organised this year.

Christmas is a funny old time for me. It used to be for many years a time of sadness.

The last Christmas I had with my mum was in 1995, I was 17 and I remember Christmas day that year with all my family rallying round trying to make it as normal and happy for me and my brother as possible. My mum was upstairs in bed and I had only been told a few weeks before this that she had lost her battle against skin cancer and she didn't have long left, the doctors had hoped 3 months at least.

My boyfriend at the time who is now my husband was amazing, my total rock and even though we had only been together a month he supported me through one of the hardest times of my life. He had bought me a necklace and I had taken it upstairs to show my mum, she tried to focus on it and we chatted a bit. I'd been told to be strong and as such had tried not to cry in front of her but it was difficult and as the tears came flowing she held me and said 'I'm your mum, I'll always be your mum and nothing can ever take that away". She was so brave and she died not long after on the 29th December.

Since having Pop Princess and Rock Baby Christmas's are now something to look forward to. Pop Princess will no doubt be charging around the house, totally hyper darting from one present to the next. Rock Baby will be more interested in tearing up the paper than the actual toys and I will be watching it all and smiling with my husband (who continues to be my rock) by my side.

This year will be Rock Baby's first Christmas! so it will be even more special. I can't wait to take them both to see Father Christmas, hope RB doesn't get scared, her sister below was not that impressed on her first visit...



I better actually start getting organised as so far I haven't bought a single thing!

When Innocent Play Goes Too Far?

Well its been a wash out of a weekend. I've been in bed most of the time while my star of a husband has been entertaining pop princess and bringing me cups of tea whilst I have been coughing and spluttering everywhere!

Rock Baby went to the doctors last Thursday as I thought she may have a chest infection, but apparently she was fine but I was told to keep a close eye on her. However every time the calpol wore off she had a low fever and has just been so unhappy and just wanting to be cuddled. Today I had to swap my days around as my dad who has been looking after the girls on a Monday and Tuesday for me has also had flu so couldn't look after them today so luckily now I'm freelance it means I can juggle my days in work around. So I was at home today and Rock Baby seemed to be getting worse so I got her into the doctors this afternoon and it turns out she has an ear infection in both ears! poor thing so now she is dosed up on antibiotics and hopefully should be feeling a lot better in the next couple of days.

Pop Princess (touch wood) has escaped the cold germs so far so fingers crossed she doesn't come down with it next.

I had a scare last week when I had left Rock Baby and Pop Princess playing in the lounge to go into the kitchen and I could hear PP giggling away, when I went back in not even a few minutes later I found Pop Princess smothering RB with a big pillow which I had left behind her in case she fell backwards. It's the second time this has happened, the last time was a few weeks ago when PP took a cot sheet out of a drawer in RB's bedroom and put it over her face again in just minutes of being left alone as I was running the bath for them. I'm not sure where she has picked this up from but she obviously thinks it's a game and I have tried to explain to her why it most definitely is not and she could have really hurt her baby sister, but I'm not entirely sure it went in as she just goes onto the next exciting game or subject in her life. Poor RB she has gone from her big sister not wanting to know her for 9 months then in the last month she has gone the opposite way and now won't leave her alone!

I can't help thinking what could have happened if I had not gone back to check sooner, but I guess a lesson learned and I simply can't leave them on their own together so I am making sure I take one or the other with me when I go into a different room. If anyone has had anyting similar happen and have any advice please do let me know!

Sorry Blog I have neglected you!

My poor blog have not shown you any love or attention in nearly a month!

Life has been slightly crazy and I'm sorry.

I've been setting up a new blog for the company I have sent up aptly called Rock and Roll Baby World, having logos designed, sorting out the paperwork to be officially self employed (gulp) and gearing up to being back at work.

Its my first week back and my week is now split by 3 days per week in Cambridge working for my previous employer as a consultant, 1 day per week at home with the girls and on a Friday I do half a day from home.

I've been exhausted! Its going to take me a while to get back into the swing of things and get more organised which is not one of my strong points.

The Girls are having to adapt to a new routine and Pop Princess in particular has been struggling. I have been really lucky with child care as my dad who is retired is looking after them for two days per week and the rest of the time they are in nursery with one afternoon being looked after by my hubby's parents.

Its a lot of juggling and on Wednesday when I came home from work they both wanted to sit and cuddle me and when i picked one up the other started crying, so I was trying to console them both but I think by the end of the 3 days of not seeing me much they had decided that was enough. Then you have the old story of feeling guilty for making them feel unsettled and they have had such a lovely year with me whilst I was on maternity leave and now it's all change again.

Today we have just been to the park and stayed in the rest of the day just playing with toys, making cakes and thank you cards for pop princess's birthday presents. Just trying to spend some quality time together.

I promise not to leave it so long next time, I leave you with some photos taken of our recent holiday in Norfolk, we went about 3 weeks ago and it was freezing!